This afternoon I noticed my socks were (are) mismatched.
Also, now that there are three more girls to share the often lonely office with me, we all usually pray together. Agomaa-style. This afternoon, before I noticed my socks didn’t match, I remembered back to when I first became a Muslim and didn’t have a clue of how to pray beyond the usual bend, prostrate, and then stick your finger in the air. I didn’t know any surat, I didn’t know any of the dua, I didn’t even know how many rakat were in each prayer and which prayer was prayed when.
I was a definite newbie.
But I would pray in a group at my wali’s house, all of us together, and his daughter-in-law would keep watch over me. Whenever we would get to the point of sitting on our heels and reciting the tashahud she would literally hold me down from getting back up again as I didn’t even know how many rakat had to pass before we said the shehada. One time I was half-way up again when she grabbed me by the knee. I almost fell flat on my face.
It was hilarious and this afternoon, while sitting on my heels and reciting the tashahud, I remembered that moment fondly and thought about how far I have come.
For anyone who is a new Muslim out there, don’t worry about the mistakes you might make. Remember that God gives you more reward for your blundering attempts than seasoned Muslims get for all their knowledge, because of the intention you put behind it.
Agomaa= in a group
surat= verses from the Quran
du’a= prayers you recite within prayer
rakat= the entire series of motions one goes through while praying (broken up into sections of the prayer)
wali= Guardian, father figure, like a God-father in Islam
tashahud/ shehada= tashahud is the point in prayer where we recite the shehada (I testify that there is no God but God and Mohamed is the Messenger of God)