The Last Hurrah

I’ve been so focused on other things recently that I really have neglected this blog. I feel uninspired and uninspiring so I didn’t know what there was to blog about.

I’m focusing on writing and reading and searching for jobs and as of tomorrow I will be gainfully employed- thank GOD! It is only a temp job doing the same thing I was doing when I started this blog two years ago- so that kind of sucks. However its work and its money and I can always continue looking for a professional job. InshAllah.

I have so much on my mind, so much that I’m holding my breath for, that there is not much room left.

I’m taking a continuing ed class in writing. Its actually too easy- meant for those who have never written before- but its something to do.

I’m still studying for the GREs but that’s fallen a bit off to the side.

The man is studying all of his stuff and I’m trying to be there to support him in that.

What am I doing? I don’t know. Its not that I’m depressed really cuz I’m not. Its more that I’m so anxious… no. Not that either.

What? What?

I don’t know.

THAT’s my problem. I just don’t know.

I think its that I don’t know if I’m going to get into the program.

And if I don’t get into the program I just don’t know what I’m going to do.

I don’t know if I’m going to find a professional job. And if I do I don’t know if I’m going to like it.

I don’t know if Mr. MM is going to get into the program he’s going to be applying for and if he doesn’t I don’t know what we’re going to do.

Its so huge. They’re so monstrous.

I DON’T KNOW.

Its a huge chasm that I can’t get around.

I can just pray through it.

Have You Seen This Blogger?

Ok, ok, don’t put my face on any milk cartons. I’m sorry I’ve been away.

Unfortunately I don’t foresee any change in this blogging pattern coming. I’m so sorry.

Right now not only is it Ramadan (Ramadan Kareem btw!) but I am studying my little tail off for the GREs which I want to take inshAllah before October. My mom is studying for her boards. And Mr. MM is studying all things law, English, and legal English related for the TOEFL and the LSATs.

We’re just a houseful of studious studiers.

I just don’t have the time.

Its not that I have given up on or forsaken blogging, I will return inshAllah, its just that right now there are things much more important for me to be doing.

Like playing vocabsushi.com.

Taking practice quizzes and tearing my hair out over the analogy questions.

Reading books that will inspire me to write for my portfolio.

Creating a portfolio.

All while fasting and sleeping here and there in 2-3 hour intervals.

Me so tired.

So, I’m sorry. Don’t send any search parties, I’m fine.

Just busy.

Mea culpa, please forgive me.